Looking back at the past 7 mths, I don't see any change in my life. Zero movement, zero accomplishment.
Looking at the sky, I never see the same pattern twice but looking at myself, I'm seeing the same thing I saw at the beginning of year. WHY?
I realised I've lapsing into the same thoughts every time I'm down. What am I doing in this world? If I have a choice, I want to sleep and never wake up. Til now, I still have not find my motivation to live. No motivation in life and I'm still asking myself what am I doing in this world. Someone once told me,
"patt, when u think ur facing a wall of bleakness in life and u feel really helpless against, torrents and tides of difficulties, u must always rmb that besides the big picture ur seeing, there are also many little things here and there, these, lil things might seem insignificant but w/o it the big picture can never be completed as well.."
I know u won't be reading this, but I'd like to thank you. Thanks for always be there. I have not found anyone who understand me as much as u do. I miss you.
I know this entry is very random and confusing. But that reflects my feelings right now. So many thoughts in my head, so many things left undone. So many thoughts left unfinished.
Many people have been worried abt me these few days. And many people have done many things to touch me, whether they mean it or not. Jamie, if u're reading this, thank you so much. You never fail to put a smile on my face :)
I've made up my mind that I've to move on. Stop thinking about the past. But that's not easy. Especially in my case. But I'll try.
"For moving forwards is rarely accomplished without considerable grief and sadness."
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YOU WROTE ABOUT ME!!! ARGH! YOU!!!!! COME HERE!! I wanna give you a noogie!!!! :) LOL.....!!
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