His words made me realize that I do not smile as much as before. I have gone back to my quiet and cold self. This happened since I came back from S'pore. My friend said that maybe cos my significant other is far away and it's not surprising that I smile less.
I did not notice how much less I smile but come to think of it, I've really stopped smiling that much. I'm not sure when can I smile again but I hope it will be really soon.
I also realize that I'm living a life of a foreign student even though I'm in my homeland now. Somehow, deep inside I still cannot accept living here. I'm living a life of a student who goes overseas to study and can't wait for it to be over. Cant wait to return to her country. Can't wait to see and feel all the familiarity again.
I know this is bad but I do not want it this way either. I wish I don't feel anything. I wish I won't miss all the people and things back there. But I do. I wish I'm not so attached to the life there. But I am. *sigh*
I hope I can start living again...soon...
For now I will
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Patt my dear...smile only if you want to..therefore the world will be a brighter place because we will know that it is genuwine.
Second of all, believe me I had the same problem as you, but I learnt to deal, by just letting go and trying to adapt..don't worry Patt...letting go doesn't mean letting go of history, friends, it just means that you loosen your grip alil, and use some of that power for the other hand to hold on to the new
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